New Occurances.

Well, many things have come into my life that I'm completely glad I have. I really do have some amazing friends. [: I have some friends that I thought I'd never have anything in common with or be able to do, say, act, think the same things that I do! I never really realized that I have such great great great friends. BAH! I'm happy that people care for me and care about me this much. *Sigh* no more emotional roller coaster alone! [:


Short brief blog. Just wanted to say that I'm really happy. I'm way happy. And I can't wait to see what else is gonna brighten up my week and/or month. [:




ps. I think.................you're really cool. :D




-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Pointless blog.

Okay, so don't judge me. This blog is a rant about nothing that many people don't know about. BUT a lot of people might now about. Basically, like in my last blog, I said that I wish someone could ride this emotional roller coaster with me. Looks like all I've got is a blog. HAHAH ew, emo much? But here goes my rant:

BAHHHHHH!! So much EMOTIONS! I feel like I need to like CHILL OUT. Or, I want to like...HAND EVERYTHING OVER. I want to be able to just have no stress on my chest. I feel like escaping somewhere. Disneyland anyone? Honestly, I'm so down. I'm so down to just get away and get rid of everything. I want to be able to AHH! I don't know! I don't even know what I'm talking about here. Honestly, I just feel like writing. From lacking sleep. From having panic attacks. From crying because I feel like I'm just a dumb fcuk. I just want to be my good ol' self again. I want to be able to go home and not worry about what I have to go back to Pomona for. Or what not. If someone can just take me out and away, life will be great. JUST ONE DAY. That's all I need. This is why I want my car back. I want my car so I can drive my cares away. I want to be able to just...DRIVE. I hate not being in control with everything. I hate not knowing what I'm doing anymore. I thought I had everything in control. AH! It's not that way anymore. This is the saddest I've ever been in my life. I don't want to be here in this position. I just don't know what to do anymore. *Sigh* Someone take me out and I promise, I'll make our day one of the greatest you'll ever have. Let's just do something, someone. Anyone.

Can we go to the beach already?


Anyone down?

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Emotional roller coaster.

Who wants to ride this with me?

So I've been dealing with so many things for the past few days. I've been dealing with so many people and interesting things which require me to use my gift of words. See...I'm on this emotional roller coaster in which I can't seem to get off of. No, I'm not on my period. But I'm happy one moment, then I'm pissed the next. Suddenly, I'm extremely happy and excited, but then I'm stressed out within the next 2 hours. Then, I can feel giddy and good, then I feel awkward and displaced. I love roller coasters, but I hate emotional ones. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's been a great week so far. I've been studying super hard for the past few days, I've been chillin' and keeping my cool with the friends I love most. I've been planning my hangouts for next week before I go home. What else could I ask for you know? But for some strange reason, I just feel so emotionally disrupt. I don't know if it's romantic feelings. I don't know if it's nervous feelings. I don't know if it's awkward feelings. I don't know if it's hatred feelings. It's just tough to explain because, it's all mumbled up in my mind. I've been dealing with a lot of people which would require them to pour or at least share their own set of emotional feelings for others. Whether it be hatred, sadness, love, annoyance, whatever. These bulks of feelings that people have shared with me, have taken an impact in my life to where I'm feeling that same emotion because I feel emotionally stressed. Different people, different feelings. I have no room for my own feelings anymore or moments in where I can talk to certain people about...well, certain people. Don't get me wrong, I love listening. I love sharing. I love talking. I just need a place where I can share my emotional barrier and weight upon someone who can support what I'm holding on my shoulders. I'm glad to be included. I'm glad I'm trusted enough to ride with others' on their emotional roller coasters. I just want to make sure that I have someone that I can ride my roller coaster with because it's a crazy rough one at times. (It's like the X2 of my life! Hahaha!) Buuuuuut, we'll see how everything works out. (This is why I said I really needed to blog. Buahaha.)



By the way, let's just get the awkwardness out. Talk? I want to.


-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Life.

let's go here. Someone take me.

So, as much as I wanted February to be over, it was over all right. Now that March is here, I want to cry. Everything has just been so hard lately. I've been wanting to write about insightful things. I've wanted to write about things that's gonna bring people up. I want to open up things to people's lives. The thing is, I haven't had those moments to write about something insightful. I want to write about insightful things, not only for people to read, but for myself to read and lift my spirits up for myself. I just feel so lost for myself ever since the beginning of February. See, the month of March started off rough, but I'm really hoping that MAYBE, just MAYBE this month will be great. I've got a few things to look forward to...Shwayze/LMFAO show, Downtown Disney date, Spring Break, Norcal trip(?), A-Board kickback, Magic Mountain day...that's all I can think of for the moment. But I mean, we'll see how things go. I mean, I do have some things I'm way excited for. But other than that, I guess I'll just stick to how my days have been going. *



Last night was the E-board/A-board auction. I must say, I was a little annoyed. I honestly was. Like, for EVERYONE to be so drunk, there was so much noise, people, drunken people to take care of. I mean, it was still fun. But, I was super tired. The party was pretty okay though. EVERYONE in that entire house was drunk except me, Christops, Cj & Daniel. Ridiculous. People were all over the place but hey, that's what that house is like. BUT, I love it. Good to be the responsible one & take care of some people. Anyway, the auction was pretty good though. To get Shwayze/LMFAO tickets for $30 bucks with Ate Rachel, Ate Katie & Kuya Ermie. SHOOT. I'm stoooooked. AND I also bought a date to Downtown Disney! I love Downtown Disney! [: It'll be a fun night 'cuz Justin Rodriquez is a fun one. Hahah. AND I'm gonna try to see if I can buy David still...by asking Cami. Buahahah. I wanna go on a date with David tooo! That'll be so much fun! [: Anywho, I really got some great stuff. SUCCESS! I got just what I wanted.

Ready for the week. Bring it on. [:

--Danielle Delos Reyes

No "F my life". More like "Ughhh....let's fix it now"

Alright, so I'm extremely tired. Tinikling practice, today's biology lab, the entire day. Tiring. And not just physically tiring, EMOTIONALLY tiring. See, today, I got accused of plagiarism. Do you know how big of a deal that is here at my school? They don't play. Thing is though, I DIDN'T PLAGIARIZE. I don't do that kind of crap and I don't cheat. That's not who I am and that's NOT what I'm about. Out of some type of misfortune (honest to God, I do not understand it happened) two sentences were copied word for word. Then "according to turnitin.com" my entire paper contained plagiarism all over it. I WROTE THE DANG PAPER MYSELF. I even turned it in EARLY to get it out of the way. I don't understand how it could've happened. Before I went up to her to clear things up because it said to "see me!" I had a 22/25 on the paper. That's really good considering it's 1/8 of my grade. She says, "You know, you actually deserve a 0 for this." And I said, "I didn't plagiarize! I don't do that! That's not what I do! I can even rewrite the paper and turn it in to you the next morning if you want. I honestly did not plagiarize." And so she says, "Hm...give me your paper." and I gave it to her. She crossed out my 22 and gave me an 18. My paper went from an 85% to a 72%. Ouch. But it's better than a zero that I "deserved". That really ruined my day. RUINED it.

I really need to study. I honestly think I might be failing biology (Sorry Jared if you read this). I am actually trying the best that I can and it's just harder than I thought for some reason. My lab is killing me. I wanted to get an A in the lab but I can't. I'm stuck with a B...IF THAT thanks to my "plagiarized" paper. I have a practical on Thursday that I'm scared for. I can't fail this class. If I do, it's time to say Good bye to veterinary school. There's no way I could get in at this time. How could I have failed so much? So early in the game? What's distracting me from focusing the way that I need to? I'm being tested right now. And it's a test that I'm apparently not doing so well in. I really need to go back to something and start from square one. I had this talk with my dad...I think I might end up changing majors. This might actually be something that I have to admit that I can't do. Something is wrong. Something just doesn't feel right. I need to rethink some things and lay things down on paper.

I had to deal with some drama from someone too. Honestly, it's not worth writing about, but all I have to say is: GROW THE EFF UP. You're the one who closed everything off. For you to act like a little kid who wants to ignore me and disregard the fact that I exist as a person and treat me even worse, go ahead. But don't expect me to treat you that way. Sure, I'll be the bigger person in this and deal with your little baby crap. So, grow up and start acting like an adult. You can't hide behind everything forever. Okay, I'm done. End of story. Don't comment on this. Just needed it out there.



I'm done. Too much emotion for one blog. I'm gonna sleep everything off and live tomorrow like a new day. Like what my friend Joseph said to me today: "Live life one day at a time. Don't worry about your future because you already have to deal with what's on your plate already." Words of a really great person. Peace out everyone. Time to start a new day in....7 minutes.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

How I Met Your Mother...

This is cute. My mom was like "Danielle, look at them race. That's gonna be me and your dad in 20 years." Hahaha! Oh man. My mom is funny. Basically, this weekend was pretty great. Friday, hung out with Shea, Brittany & Jackie. Man, good night but things are pretty funny when you hear "Oh, I have to be back by midnight so I can get high with ****" Buahahahaha! Like, seriously? It's really funny when someone who is new to the college experience be like "Omgosh! I wanna try everything bad!" Honestly, worst idea I've heard. Anyway, it was just funny. So Saturday, homework and....RODRIGUEZ party! High school kids man. Way too funny. Justin Rodriguez came and picked me up and oh man. Heart to hearts in the car. Gooood stuff. AH man. The party was all too fun. Super smash, How I Met Your Mother, guitaring, piano-ing, fake drinking, making fun of high school kids...I love the Rodriguez family. [: Anywho, today, I went out with mother and father to Anaheim and ate dinner together. It was nice and what not. So yeah. Basically, it was just a really easy, nice weekend. Remind me to never stay at the dorms on weekends. Or if anything, INVITE ME TO STAY AT YOUR HOUSE! PLEASE! Okay, good night. Time for a really hard week. *Sigh*

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

$202!?!

So the city of Pomona hates me. I honestly want to cry and UGH. So many things have just been sucking so much. Plenty of things have been happening and it's just too much to handle right now. It's been getting super annoying. The most annoying part of it all is that I need to come up with $202 because the stupid freaking city of Pomona gave me a ticket for hitting the two trees that I hit when I got into my accident. Honestly, hearing that put me in the worst mood ever. I'm not in "I hate my life" mode, but I'm so mad at everything that happened. On top of a $300 speeding ticket & traffic school online for Bakersfield, I have no car. I have no more money. I have 2 tickets on my record all within a week of each other. One of which was JUST an accident. But the city of Pomona is a real jerk. What am I supposed to do? I'm about ready to resort to things I shouldn't. UGH. Why must so many crappy things happen to me this month?

-- Danielle Delos Reyes