Please don't worry about me I'm fine...

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Go on girrrrrl. Go on girrrrrl.

So, it's been one whole day...HAHA...just a day and I'm already feeling this way. It's so hard. It's hard to listen to everyone talk about this all..what am I talking about? Barkada E-board. You know, it breaks my heart every single time I think about this. It breaks my heart everytime I HEAR about it. You know, people say that it's probably harder for those who ran but lost...nothing beats the pain of regret. I sit here listening to them talk about how excited they are. Don't get me wrong, I would be extremely excited if I was on board this year. All my friends are on the board and it's just awesome to see them so happy. I just feel so...jealous. I feel rather left out when I think about it. Why? Because all they talk about is what they're gonna do to bond. Then when I ask one of them to not forget about me and make time for me (jokingly of course), and he says "Of course I will! I will always make time for members!" Ouch. I'm more than a member. I'm your friend. What ever happened to you can still be friends? I mean, they talk about E-board being a clique. I just hope you guys can change it because I'm already starting to feel it since most of my friends are on it. It's just hard to be the only one of your closest friends to not be on board. How else can I put it? I'm jealous. I'm not gonna lie. I'm so jealous. I just wish I could do what I want...but my heart is telling me to do what I need. *Sigh* Decisions I have to make, choices I have to choose from, aches I have to heal from. One day...it'll be my time. But I won't make my friends just regular people that I overrule.

--Danielle Delos Reyes

1 comments:

Zoo-Hey said...

I think your last couple of sentences are something you could never promise. You would hope so, but you can never really accomplish that. There's always going to be a time when everyone feels left out because they're not E-Board... but isn't that why we have the drive to run anyway? To have what E-Board has/had?

Yeah, whoever said that about the members thing said something dumb, but don't think that all of us are going to end up like that. Have faith in us!

E-Board is a clique. It will always be a clique. I just hope all of us know when to be a clique and when to not.

Have faith in us, please! :]

And you're right. Your time will come so don't regret anything yet. Because based on this, it sounds like you regret it because you're not "in"... you know what I mean? And of course I'm sure you have other reasons as to why you feel that dreaded R word, but DON'T. OKAY?! And if you do... well... I'll just have to knock some f*ckin sense into you >:P

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