RIP Magnaton.

So, SCPASA summit was great. It was one of the most fun I've had in a while. I miss it all and everything. But there is a not so great story to this. After VIBE, the after party, Justin and I decided to go home instead of partying and hanging out with everyone else at Leah's house. Justin drove the first half and was starting to feel really sleepy. So he pulled over and I decided to drive the rest because I was feeling more awake. He fell asleep. It was an easy drive back and I was almost home. I exited Diamond Bar Blvd and kept driving. At this point, it's 1:30am. Until suddenly, I found myself with my windshield cracked and on top of the media. I found myself on the other side of the median. For a split second, I found some type of consciousness and moved myself back onto my side of the road while at the same time, I hit another tree. I pushed the breaks, set the car to park and sat there dumbfounded at what I saw and felt. I looked at my windshield and couldn't believe that it was cracked. I was so scared, I looked over and checked to see if Justin was okay...thank God, he was still awake and talking. The first thing he asked me was "Are you okay Danielle?!" I was like "I'm okay. Oh my God. I can't believe this happened. Oh my God." At the same time, I looked down and I was bleeding. My right leg was shining in the light with blood dripping down. I had glass in it. My right arm had a gash in it with a sparkle. I had glass in my arm. I got out of the car easily and Justin got of the car easily. I looked at Justin and asked him if he was okay. Lucky for him, NOTHING was on him. No gashes or scratches on him. Which made me calmer. Right then, two ladies said "I've already called the cops. You'll be fine. Is everything okay? Anything broken? Anyone else in the car?" I answered "No" and I asked what time it was. The ladies said that it was about 2am in the morning. My leg was burning and the cops, firefighters and ambulence came. They made me wash everything out but they couldn't get the glass out. The ladies offered to take me to the hospital which I ended up doing after the cops wrote up the report and my car was towed away. While I was talking to the cops, Justin took pictures of the entire car. The pictures still scare me to this day and I still can't sleep fully without waking up or dreaming about the crash. I went to the hospital at 4am and didn't go in until 6:30am. Justin and those two ladies stayed the whole time. The ladies left once my dad and my brother came. I got my leg washed up and all the glass was out. It was crazy how much glass there was. After everything else, my dad, kuya, me and Justin went to breakfast and things just seemed better. My dad made me feel so much better and I was just glad to be in a bed again. I totally knocked out for that day.

My life flashed before my eyes and I still can't believe to this day that I am still alive. These pictures make it seem like I died. I was a miracle story for the hospital and it was crazy. I'm so blessed to know that God wants me to live today. I value my life so much more and all I can do is thank God everyday for giving me a second chance to live today. I'm traumatized to drive or ride in a car but I'm Danielle. I can get through anything. As for a ride, I'm walking for now. But going somewhere far, that's not too much of an option for me right now. I hope I get over this as much as I can. All I ask is that people continue to pray for me. I still have to deal with my mom's angry and worried self, but I can understand. RIP Magnaton. You will be missed and you were a great car. Everyone drive safely. Please please please. Value your life everyone, you never know when you'll lose it.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Wussuh.

So, lately...things have been so up and down. I just don't know, my week has been very...evenly happy and unhappy. SOOOO! Let's begin, shall we?

Sunday: BAD DAY. Came back to Pomona from home and right when I get onto the freeway...AWESOME. Police sirens go off. I pull over and he goes " I had to stop you for going 86 on a 70 zone." I was like "I'm so sorry. I'm just trying to get back to school right now." And he says, "It's okay, let me see your license, registration and insurance" So I dig out my license and my insurance while at the same time, I had to keep my radar hidden or else I could get arrested. I found my license and my insurance and I go "I'm so sorry sir, but I've never been pulled over and I don't know what my registration looks like" And he tells me "It's alright, I'll help you find it." And so, I was looking through all these papers and we find it. He leaves and is gone for a super long time. I already knew, he wouldn't give me a warning. FML. So he comes back and gives me back everything and he makes me sign the ticket. FML even more. So I called my parents, made myself feel bad, and everything else. Awesome. So now, I'm waiting for the ticket to come to my dorm so I know when to go to court. Sucks. So, no more speed racing for me. *sigh*.

Monday - BAD DAY/OKAY DAY. Soooo, SOMEONE was acting super weird and it was buggin'. So it was way wack and way weird. Had PaCN audtions and it was SO much fun. Tried out for a lead role and I'm kinda scared about it, but I'm excited. I really hope I did as well as I think I did. YEE. The part I tried out for was just way too fun too. And it was something I can totally characterize up. PaCN is so awesome, I really hope I get to be a part of it this year for the first time. And, that's about all that happened. Monday was a lame but okay day.

Tuesday - BAD DAY to GREAT NIGHT. After someone was acting so weird, we get to an awkward argument. After him coming over to talk about it...turns out, I find out everything I wanted to do and become a better part of his life. You can guess. I won't say on here. Hahaha. First in almost 2 years. And I must say, this feeling is a great feeling. I've really grown during those times of being completely single and I'm using these lessons I've learned. Everything is great and I'm just super happy. He and I are really happy and I don't know! It's just great. [: The 27th. A new date to add on the important list on my calendar.

Wednesday - GOOD DAY. First day of being half of a relationship. Hahaha. Ew. Just kidding. It's a new feeling. And I'm on my best behavior. Seeee, I can be great. Ain't no thang. Watched the Barkada Basketball Intramurals game and cheered on my other half of a relationship. He's so freaking good. What the. And it was cute, I tried to make a shot and I heard "There goes my girl." Eeeee. SHUTUP! I'm not smiling on the inside. Hahahaha. This day was a great day, other than the studying the whole day part. But great day anyway.

Thursday - GOOD DAY. Barkada meeting, great as always. Seeing him, great as always. Hung out with people, great as always. Today is just a good day so far. It's not over yet, but I have a feeling today is just gonna end being a great day.


This Saturday is SCPASA Summit. Woo! I'm so stoked, I can't wait to go. Spend a day with Barkada and a ton of friends that I know from UCI. Then, PARTY IT UP that night! Wooo! *siiigh* Awesomeeeeee! Okay, time to stay in class. Pictures will be up when I get back to my dorm. [:

OH By the way, my weekends are completely packed. Let's hang out on the open dates, yes?

January--
31st - SCPASA @ UCR

Feburary -
7th - Brittany's Miss Placenta, I mean Placentia pagent.
14th - Valentine's Day. [:
21st - OPEN
28th - OPEN

March-
7th - OPEN
14th - OPEN
21st - Sportsfest XX @ CPP
23-27th - Spring break in NORCAL (Hopefully)
28th - Lizelle's Birthday Weekend

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Walk for Life 09

Walk for Life 2009. San Francisco, California. Started off at 4AM in the morning riding the bus at St. Francis Parish at first felt like it wasn't worth it. Especially when I came back from Pomona late at night and slept late. BUT in reality, it was totally worth it. Knowing that I'm standing up for the rights of those who can't stand up for themselves. I don't know if you're against abortion, but I know I am. This blog is definitely about the support I have for them and what I stood for this weekend. 35,000 people were there standing up for those unborn in San Francisco. There were no more than 100 protesters who were for abortion. What I don't understand are the people who are FOR abortion. The majority of those who were against it, were women who have never had a child before. Also, there were a lot of protesters that were gay men. Honestly, why would gay men have a reason to be behind abortion. They don't have a reason to be. No hate on gays, it's just interesting about how they could be behind abortion. People were yelling at me saying "You don't even know why you're walking!" Well, my response to this was "You don't even know why you're standing and yelling." People have the nerve to just say "F*** Christianity" How could you? I don't understand how people can undermine and disrespect others. No one is disrespecting people who are FOR abortion. We simply are against it and we stand for these poor babies that cannot speak for themselves. God has said "Thou shalt not kill." It's just the way it's supposed to be. I just wanted to speak out for that. I really hope and pray that abortion will end. Regardless of whether you're a Christian or not, abortion is bad and you should really take a stand on it all. Well, I just don't want to make things sound like I'm persecuting anyone so I just want everyone to know where I stand and what I experienced this weekend. Picture time:

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Real eyes realize real lies

Helloooooooo blogspot! There's been plenty that's happened lately...

So I've been really sick lately and I haven't updated because I'm just blegh. I honestly think I have strep throat. Haha. Okay maybe not. But duuude, it's totally been not cool.

I just got back from Palmdale from Campus Based Camp. Wow, man. It's so amazing to go back to feeling that spiritual high that I've always felt back in the day. It's really good to be with people that love God as much as I do. Everything was so amazing. It felt so good to be with old friends and meet new friends that are in the same situations as I am. AH I love it. I miss it already. [:

OHHHHHHHHHH man oh man. I just wanted to say...I'm as happy as happy can be. Everything is so great. Not only am I happy spiritually, but I'm happy because of someone very special to me. Spending a lot of time together, going to places I've never been to, eating some of my favorite foods with him. I guess I'm starting to enjoy the company of someone and BLEGH! Too cute lovey mushy crap. Hahahah. Whatever. [:

Anywho, I'm going to continue doing what I'm doing. I'm so tired. Hahaha. I'll update again soon with more life-teaching artsy stuff. How I love my life. [:

--Danielle Delos Reyes

Here's to my beginning of my winter quarter.

Well, winter quarter. You know, my second session of college. So far, I've definitely got a whole new outlook on certain things. So many things have already happened within my life and I don't know what to make of it all but rather, just to accept them and deal with them both good and bad events.

1. So I just got back from Bakersfield for Lucky's reunion. I left Wednesday afternoon and got back thursday morning. CRAZY drive and I'm extremely tired because I've had class from 9:15am to 7pm and I went to Irvine for Kababayan's 1st general meeting. I barely got back in at like 12 midnight. But anyway, after my dog dying, it was like my family was brought together even more. My dog really did bring luck to my family and it seems as though my entire family was ready to let him go. We really became happier because we didn't have to worry about him being sick or cold or anything. We all loved him.

2. I'm trying to get into a class while at the same time I'm debating on whether or not I should take the Spanish Challenge test. I feel confident and all, but I'm a little shaky on my Spanish. I'm stressing out from having to add the class where I don't have permission numbers, and the last day is tomorrow. I'm just extremely stressed out on studying for the spanish test and for trying to get the class. Blegh.

3. I'm getting to know someone! [: It's a nice feeling. No lie. Things are going slow as it should, but not slow enough to just pass by without a thought. I haven't forgotten about "it" but I feel as though something good is happening to me for once with this situation of mine. I don't know. It's weird but cool. Hahah. This little deal is helping me cope with my stresses of other stuff so I'm thankful for this someone. [:

4. My classes are so effing hard. Well, just one of them. There's so much to do and so much to study and it just seems like it's never ending! Not only that, but I feel like I'm wasting my college career. I feel as though I'm not doing anything right or that I'm not taking the right things. I feel so...crazy stressed like I won't do well for my future. I feel like changing majors because for some reason, it doesn't feel like this is for me. I don't know...I really need to pray about this.

5. I'm lacking so much sleep. I haven't sleep well for like the past few weeks. I don't know why. I really should start sleeping super early and relax a little bit to be able to catch up on sleep so I won't be complaining all the time or anything like that. BLEGH!

Well, I hate sounding like I'm always complaining. But I felt as though this was a need to relieve stress and sort out everything that I'm trying to deal with. Oh gosh, I'm glad to be taken away from some of these bad reoccurances a few times a day. I hope things go well for me and everything will become the way my life should be.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

RIP Lucky.

So, as of right now, my heart is broken. A part of me has left me and passed on to a better world. You know, people use the excuse of "oh my dog died" well, my dog really did die. My dog of 14 years. Lucky. See, Lucky was my dog. He was a little dachsaund and he was really cute. What I'm happy is that my dog was never put to sleep. He died peacefully and naturally. Thank God he lived to be as long as he did. He really looked out for the houses that we lived in. For a little dog, he's got a huge bark. Not to mention, he's a biter. He really looked out for me too. We used to say that he has a white mask and white gloves because of his aging white fur. He's such a wonderful and beautiful dog. I will miss him so much. My other dog, my sister's dog, Mocha is going to be so distraught. She was his best friend. She and I are the two who are mourning the most and I know she feels the way I do. You know, as sad as I am...I'm so glad that he was able to live that long life. He was always so happy. I love him like no other and I'm sad to have to see him buried tomorrow. For me to go home and bury my dog makes it a huge deal for me. You know, he has played with so many people. So many people know him and are super sad to see him go...I appreciate everyone for loving him just as much as we did. I ask you to just pray for him or give him a moment of silence because he really was someone special in my family. It's like losing a brother to me. My first dog, MY dog. RIP Lucky. You will be missed. I love you.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

What if...

"I promise to never hurt you. No matter what we are, we'll always be together somehow."



So, I just had a random thought moment. I was looking back at old pictures and old blogs and I was reading about my old crushes/boyfriends/loves and I thought "What if whatever happened between us never happened...?" BUT I think about one person. Just this one person. You think someone is so perfect while you're with them and you just continue to learn more and more about one person and all of a sudden, the unexpected happens. They decide to cheat on you or lie to you. But here's where the thought comes in. What would happen if they never cheated on you or lied? Would you still be with them living happily? It's funny, I only thought about this today. If this one person hadn't done what he'd done, we would actually still be together. We would still be talking. He would still be waiting for me, he would still be singing to me every night, he would still be making me feel better when TOM's in town. It's funny, he was like the most perfect guy I've ever met. He had everything I could've ever wanted. He was everything I could ever imagine a guy to be like. See, if he didn't lie to me about this other girl, we'd still be enjoying eachother's company every single second like we always did. A few months ago, we decided to talk about what happened between us. At this point, I decided that I wouldn't ever go back with him because of what happened but I had to ask, "So, would you ever consider yourself going back to me?" And his answer is just what I expected from him: "Of course Danielle. I know I don't have a chance now, but maybe sometime in the future? I've missed you." Hmm...what a thought right? I haven't heard from him in a while. We both have lives and we're both busy.

But here's the other thing I ask: Does anyone else compare to him? Interesting question to ask myself, don't you think? Honestly, he was a great guy. We're still friends. I think any girl he decides to be with is lucky because he really is a nice guy. He just can't handle his amount of flirtatious habits. Okay so back to the question. Really, he was his own type of guy. I won't compare another guy to him. I start every guy of interest over. But regardless of whether or not I thought this boy was perfect, perfection comes within the perfection of one's own personality. If you can perfect what you are, then you're perfect.

See, althought I thought about this guy, here's the truth: I'm so thankful that I'm not with him anymore. Number 1: I would've never learned the lessons that I've learned from him. Number 2: I would've never been able to be strong and stand up for myself against cheating/lying or crap like that. Number 3: I would've never learned how to be patient and hold out for everything. But see, I like where I stand now. I've learned all this and I'm getting to know someone who is one of the nicest boys I've ever met and I get to see him everyday and learn about him. I think that's what made the difference between me and the "perfect" boy. He seemed perfect to me because I never saw him everyday. I could only go by his words and his "perfect" responses, which I'm not judging are lies. But, that's all they were, perfection. I think it's time for me to not automatically BE GIVEN perfection, but rather, to learn and see the perfection in someone personally.

SO MANY THOUGHTS! Trying to sort it all out.

--Danielle Delos Reyes