Complete vent.

Right now, I hate my summer. I'm flat broke. I'm super upset about the new car situation where I have to pay for part of the insurance & the newly added damages to our already damaged car. Finding a job is ridiculously hard in Bakersfield. My Norcal/Socal roadtrip is a definite NO for this summer as of tonight. As of right now, the looks on getting a new car is dunzo because of all that's been happening. Everything is going NOT the way I'd hoped. Please summer....change now.


-- Danielle Delos Reyes

The Way You Make Me Feel.

Michael Jackson

August 25, 1958 - June 25, 2009.

A singer, dancer, humanitarian, role model, creator, musical producer, legend, pop icon, peace maker, hero, friend, father, brother and nonetheless an inspiration to the entire world. Upon hearing about his death, I turned on the radio to hear how much of an impact he has on this world, "When the world heard of his death, everyone in the entire world went on the internet: myspace, youtube, facebook, twitter, etc. that the internet almost crashed." That's amazing. His death was such a huge impact on me. I felt like part of my childhood has left me. I always thought he was going to live until I had kids and they were gonna know about him. It's interesting that those who don't like him, KNOW the words to his song. That's how great this man is. He will be missed by all his fans & people around the world. So long as his music is playing, he will continue to inspire and live on forever. I know when I'm older, I'm going to introduce my kids to Michael Jackson & they are going to love him as much as I do. I will forever have respect for this man & all he's done for the world.

RIP Michael Jackson, King of Pop.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Summer flings

Heheheheheh. :D





-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Shuffle.

Once in a while, put your ipod on shuffle. You'll be surprised with what randomness comes up. It's nice to have something random come up, while at the same time you could get something you don't want. Even though you get what you don't want, you heard something new. Sometimes, something comes up that reminds you of someone that's made you sad or upset at one point of your life BUT you still listen to it and reminisce about those times. Sometimes you get something that reminds you of the old times but even though you wish those times were back, you were glad you've moved on 'cuz you've learned your lesson. Sometimes you get those songs that remind you what you were like back in the day. Sometimes, it shows what kind of maturity you've grown into.

just like with an Ipod...

Once in a while, put your life on shuffle. You'll be surprised with what randomness comes up. [:


-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Back from the dead.

CFC-Youth, I'm back.

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Disney-Pixar.

You know, some of the best movies I've ever watched has come from Disney-Pixar movies. Ever notice the lessons they leave you?

Monster's Inc. - Don't judge a book by its cover. There are more to life than just glory.
Ratatouille - You're never too small to do what you love.
Cars - Never forget the people who support you and have always supported you in your life.
Finding Nemo - Family will do whatever it takes to take care of you and have you in their arms again.
Meet the Robinsons - You are never too young to make your dreams come true.
Toy Story - Jealousy gets you no where.
Toy Story 2 - People always deserve a second chance.
The Incredibles - Teamwork and family will always succeed against all odds.
A Bug's Life - Never get taken advantage of; you can always refuse anything if it's unfair.
Wall-E - Take care of those you love. Love will conquer all.
Up! - Adventure is what you make of it; it's the journey you have in reaching your goals and dreams.



If only people looked at these lessons, the world would be a better place. [:
Now time to finish watching Monster's Inc. & Ratatouille tonight. Let's learn some lessons, shall we?

--Danielle Delos Reyes

Finished.

Wow, my first year of college is...done. Holy S%*$! I can officially say, I'm a second year in college. WHAT THE! Man, this year went by so fast. The one thing I regret though, is having such SUCKY grades. UGH! I'll fix it next year. I promise. Next year's grades are what's going to determine the year and how much involvement I'm going to have in the club I love so much. There's so much that has gone on all year. All I have to say is that, I don't regret anything...well a few. BUT if they didn't happen, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I must say, there's a lot for myself that I have to improve, but I'm proud of myself. I'm proud for surviving a hard year. You know, I've met so many people who have changed me to become a stronger person. I've also met so many people who have brought me down. However, every lesson is learned regardless of person.
I think that it's not only one person who has changed me, but rather a whole group of people. This is why, I love my two families away from own family here at home.

Living in Palmitas with a whole different group of people is like coming home to a family. They're always around and different people are home at random times. It's good coming back to people you can borrow stuff from or go to if you're feeling upset. Most importantly, support. Everyone just wants you to be happy and be close. We all take care of eachother, like a family. Palmitas...is like my mom's side of the family.
Barkada, is my dad's side of the family. The place where I get my personality from. Party, fun, culture, inspiration, drive, love. Everything that my personality grows from. It's good to have something like both sides of my REAL family. The two together is create my home away from home.

Graduates, I just want to say it was a real pleasure getting to know each and every single one of you. You have inspired me to shoot for the best in my academics as well as a love for my culture. You have showed me that everything is possible in college no matter how crazy it gets. Each one of you has showed me that anyone can do anything if you really focus. And most importantly, each one of you has helped me in one way or another in something & I can only thank you so much for it all. Best of luck for your futures and hopefully, I'll get to inspire you for something amazing one day.

2008-2009, You have been just fine. No matter what I went through this year, nothing can change how much I've learned. Regardless of whether or not I did as well as I would hope in all aspects of my academics, extra-curriculars, etc. I learned something new every single day. Next year will be different. Not a bad different, but rather a meaningful one. I can already feel it.

In the meantime, it's summer. Let's do this. [:

-- Danielle Delos Reyes

Please don't worry about me I'm fine...

Go on girrrrrl. Go on girrrrrl.

So, it's been one whole day...HAHA...just a day and I'm already feeling this way. It's so hard. It's hard to listen to everyone talk about this all..what am I talking about? Barkada E-board. You know, it breaks my heart every single time I think about this. It breaks my heart everytime I HEAR about it. You know, people say that it's probably harder for those who ran but lost...nothing beats the pain of regret. I sit here listening to them talk about how excited they are. Don't get me wrong, I would be extremely excited if I was on board this year. All my friends are on the board and it's just awesome to see them so happy. I just feel so...jealous. I feel rather left out when I think about it. Why? Because all they talk about is what they're gonna do to bond. Then when I ask one of them to not forget about me and make time for me (jokingly of course), and he says "Of course I will! I will always make time for members!" Ouch. I'm more than a member. I'm your friend. What ever happened to you can still be friends? I mean, they talk about E-board being a clique. I just hope you guys can change it because I'm already starting to feel it since most of my friends are on it. It's just hard to be the only one of your closest friends to not be on board. How else can I put it? I'm jealous. I'm not gonna lie. I'm so jealous. I just wish I could do what I want...but my heart is telling me to do what I need. *Sigh* Decisions I have to make, choices I have to choose from, aches I have to heal from. One day...it'll be my time. But I won't make my friends just regular people that I overrule.

--Danielle Delos Reyes

This week's to-do list.

1. Move out of my dorm.
....pack up all clothes, books, computer stuff, beddings, memories.
2. Take pictures with everyone here in Palmitas.
....2nd floor friends, 3rd floor friends & 1st floor boys. [:
3. Go to Disneyland one more time before school ends.
....Tuesday with Palmitas & Friday with Barkada.
4. Pass all 4 finals.
....Animal & Veterinary Science, Trigonometry, U.S. History & Statistics.




Doesn't sound like much. But it's all time-consuming. New blog update with my life tomorrow.

Shining Star

I wish I could be just like Mario when he gets the shining star....

INVINCIBLE.

Julian Doloroso - Live Life (Original)
I have such talented friends. [:

Braveface.

"I put on a brave face everytime I see you when you're with her" - Melissa Polinar "Braveface"

You know, every girl wants to be well-liked. Every girl wants to feel that special someone next to them. What girl doesn't want her hand to be held or that everlasting hug that everyone is envious of? So why do we us girls always question ourselves of why we're not good enough for someone? It's an interesting life we all have. Girls are competitive. Each and every single girl wants to be better than another. Especially if it's a girl who is getting attention by someone we admire most. But how can one be able to say, "You know what, I'm better than this. I don't need a man." Where do we women feel that confidence to say this? I don't think men understand what women go through every time they see us. Every girl looks into the mirror at one point and says, "I'm not good enough." Every girl at one point writes down all the things that are wrong with her. Every single girl questions herself and her own self identity.
But why? Why do we girls do things like that? Why do we all put ourselves down? It's because we are insecure. We don't trust ourselves to be beautiful. We don't allow ourselves to believe that we are something special because of a few rejections here and there. But you know what? God doesn't make ugly. We all have to believe is that we are all special and we are all different. We can't compare ourselves to girls in Cosmo, Vogue, or even our very own friends. We have to know and believe that we all have different talents and we are all beautiful in different ways. Every time we see that guy with that girl, we wonder "What's she got that I don't?" You know, it could be a lot of things, then again, it could be nothing. But why isn't he talking to you? I don't have an exact answer for that. Maybe it's not your time to be noticed. Maybe he's not the one you're destined to be with. Maybe he's just not for you. Maybe the timing is all wrong. Either way, you can't let yourself believe that it's all YOUR fault. Sometimes, things are just out of hand and you have to keep going with your head up knowing that you are someone who deserves someone who can keep up with what you believe, what you enjoy and what you love.
Maybe you'll find someone who isn't your other half, but rather someone who can complement you rather than complete. Don't shoot yourself down for being shot down. Live it, learn it, love it. Getting over something is hard but not learning from it is harder. Never question that you're not worth something for someone. If you have to ask yourself if you're good enough for someone, then you don't belong in a relationship yet. Before you can be in one, you have to love yourself first. No one can love you in place of loving yourself. Remember that regardless of how ugly, how fat , how untalented, how unworthy you think you are, you are BEAUTIFUL in someone's eyes. Where is this person now? It's up to you to wait, believe, and trust that this person is waiting for you, just like you're waiting for him. In time, when you can love yourself, you can love someone else. When you can say that you're beautiful because you are who you are, you can bounce back into the dating game. But for now, allow yourself to love YOU. You deserve it. And trust, you're not the only one who loves you for you every single day.



& this, I tell myself in times like these.


-- Danielle Delos Reyes