Who wants to ride this with me?
So I've been dealing with so many things for the past few days. I've been dealing with so many people and interesting things which require me to use my gift of words. See...I'm on this emotional roller coaster in which I can't seem to get off of. No, I'm not on my period. But I'm happy one moment, then I'm pissed the next. Suddenly, I'm extremely happy and excited, but then I'm stressed out within the next 2 hours. Then, I can feel giddy and good, then I feel awkward and displaced. I love roller coasters, but I hate emotional ones. I mean, don't get me wrong. It's been a great week so far. I've been studying super hard for the past few days, I've been chillin' and keeping my cool with the friends I love most. I've been planning my hangouts for next week before I go home. What else could I ask for you know? But for some strange reason, I just feel so emotionally disrupt. I don't know if it's romantic feelings. I don't know if it's nervous feelings. I don't know if it's awkward feelings. I don't know if it's hatred feelings. It's just tough to explain because, it's all mumbled up in my mind. I've been dealing with a lot of people which would require them to pour or at least share their own set of emotional feelings for others. Whether it be hatred, sadness, love, annoyance, whatever. These bulks of feelings that people have shared with me, have taken an impact in my life to where I'm feeling that same emotion because I feel emotionally stressed. Different people, different feelings. I have no room for my own feelings anymore or moments in where I can talk to certain people about...well, certain people. Don't get me wrong, I love listening. I love sharing. I love talking. I just need a place where I can share my emotional barrier and weight upon someone who can support what I'm holding on my shoulders. I'm glad to be included. I'm glad I'm trusted enough to ride with others' on their emotional roller coasters. I just want to make sure that I have someone that I can ride my roller coaster with because it's a crazy rough one at times. (It's like the X2 of my life! Hahaha!) Buuuuuut, we'll see how everything works out. (This is why I said I really needed to blog. Buahaha.)
By the way, let's just get the awkwardness out. Talk? I want to.
-- Danielle Delos Reyes
Who wants to ride this with me?
